Raise a glass to 2012
December 22, 2011 § 6 Comments
As has been my annual tradition, I have generally and enthusiastically assessed the year-ending in terms of my successes, my failures, where I am now and where I’m heading. But this year, somehow, I don’t have the “geduld” [that’s Yiddish for patience] to make the lists, to look at what I’ve done or not done, with the same excitement and fervor as I have in years past.
In my creative world, I have performed in new venues, shared the stage with many terrific artists and musicians alike, created new coaching classes, have co-taught with musicians and learned folks for whom I have much respect, coached singers and have been inspired by their enthusiasm and courage, met new audiences and made many new fans and friends. Yet somehow, it just doesn’t feel like enough.
In my personal world, I have a husband who I adore and who loves me unconditionally (when I’m not doing something that completely annoys him) and who is my biggest fan. His family. My family. Our little farm in San Francisco, including the dogs, the chickens, the turtles and the fish. All who bring me great joy.
Perhaps the “recession/depression” our country is in has also gotten to me. I have become much more politically attuned – and mostly don’t like what I see or hear. I did not grow up in a “dysfunctional family.” We were really quite normal. But I do believe our country is quite dysfunctional right now and it doesn’t make me feel good, nor do I know, really, how I can help. Worse than that is that I don’t see at all how our government is going to come back together in my lifetime. I feel alienated by so much of the “noise.” I don’t feel like I belong.
So I am left with the questions … “What is it that I CAN do?” “How can my music take me up and out?” “What difference can I make through my music and my teaching to my family, my friends, my fans, and to me?”
I guess my job over the next year is to discover more of the questions whose answers will guide the next phase of my journey.
2012, I look forward to meeting you head on
P.S. – Happy Hanukkah, Merry Christmas, Happy New Year, Happy Kwanzaa and I hope I didn’t miss anything!